18 weeks

Belly Pictures!

I am 18 weeks today. And I just keep getting bigger!

Rusty says

 "Man you have gotten huge".."But its a cute pregnant belly"

(I am trying to work on you don't tell a pregnant girl she is huge :))

6 weeks

14 weeks

Kortnee is way excited to be an aunt

16 weeks

17 weeks

• I think I have been feeling "flutters" but I still question myself. 
• I eat lots of fruits, cheese sandwiches, and mango flavored everything (suckers, Popsicle, smothies).
• Sweets like chocolate doesn't sound very good or mexican food
• Pastas sound good
• Tuna sounds the best but I don't eat a lot of it cuz of the mercury and Rusty doesn't like it
• I feel "tight" at night a lot. Best way I can describe it is (girls) you know when you just feel bloated or have a food belly and just want to let your stomach relax? That's how I feel but I can't. I think to myself I know I need to get bigger but I just can't and how on earth am I going to.
• My belly itches all the time so I rub lotion on it to help prevent stretch marks
• I don't have stretch marks..yet..
• I don't have varicose veins
• I still take my zofran
• I already "waddle" and everyone laughs at me for it
• My dad thinks I am having the baby tomorrow (cuz I am so big)
• Grandma thinks twins 
• Most people think I am having a girl (besides my boss and myself)
• Most people think I am further along then what my doc told me but we'll find out when I have my ultrasound ( I know i haven't had one yet..what the heck)
• I have dreams of the baby and it's always a boy
• I badly want to sleep on my stomach 
• My allergies have been crazy
• I do cry  more 
• Water is my best friend
• I am hot all the time 
• When i get hungry I need food NOW  (as i eat a cheese sandwich)
• I did the other day make a bag of popcorn ( which I don't even like popcorn really)

We find out in a week what we are having!! 

Rusty won't really pick out names with me until we know what we are having..

One name he really likes is (Maelynn, Maylin, Maylen) however you want to spell it. 

For a boy he likes Chase and Carter but he says we are having a girl.

I am still looking around because I don't think these are "the one" yet.

Rusty still says " It doesn't really seem like you are pregnant"

The flutters I think make it more real for me.

Sometimes I get nervous about it all but we are both so excited and I can't wait to finally know what we are having!

18 weeks

The bump is coming!

So I have a lot to say but I'll begin with..

Rusty and I are having a lil' one!

We are so excited!
We've been through a lot- cancer and engaged at the age of 18, married at 19, sealed at 20, and now baby at 21!

March 14th is the day I found out I was pregnant! 

I had noticed the weekend before that I was soo tired coming from my great grandpa's funeral.

Then Monday hit..

Rusty and I made it a goal to go running with Chomper to let him get some exercise, that made me even more tired. I'd get home and couldn't stay awake but I only needed like 10 maybe 20mins to nap then I was fine.
(Now I don't ever take naps..never been a fan because I would wake up more tired then when I went to sleep.)

Tuesday 

I started to not feel good at all. I was feeling sick and tired.   

Wednesday 

I couldn't stand to be in the car or Walmart. 

Rusty kept "hey you know you can grab some food if you want"

Everything made me wanna puke and I just wanted to get out of there.

I told him "you might want to get a test because either I am getting really sick or I'm pregnant."

Being tired..feeling nausea..
my breast were really sore for like 2 weeks..

and in New Mexico for Rusty's cancer check up I thought I should have been starting well it'd been a few weeks later now.

So I waited till Thursday morning to take the test. 

(I heard it works better in the morning)

But both test came out "error" (Rusty is like maybe you are doing it wrong..I'm pretty sure its hard to go wrong with peeing on a stick ha)

So he went to go run some errands and stopped by Josh's work. He told Josh that I was feeling sick and Josh says "You might want to go get a test because who the heck gets sick in the spring"

So needless to say Rusty came home with more test and I so I took another one. 

It came out positive.

I had a huge smile on my face but didn't know how to tell Rusty or what he'd think.

He sometimes would be like I'd love to have a kid/if it happens it happens/oh I don't want one right now. 

So i went into the kitchen where he was cooking dinner and he looked over at me and asked "Are you pregnant?" "Yep" "Noo way! No you aren't!" (With a huge grin on his face) "Yes I am Babe"

He looks at the stick and says "No you aren't!"

"Babe it is positive which means I am"

He couldn't stop smiling. 

Then wanted me to take like three more test! 

I took one more and I was still pregnant..:)

Now that I am going to be a mom my protective instincts are kicking in already.

And one is about my dog..

 Chomper has been a pain in my butt the last few weeks. 

I know my emotions are all over the place but man he is just so needy.

We've had a few talks about getting rid of him because i have no idea how I am gunna take care of him and a new born in a one bedroom apartment. His barking would wake the baby up. He has to go the bathroom a lot and I can't really handle that when I am puking and even physically he is too strong for me. He's just huge and one mistake (and I don't think on purpose) would do some serious damage...

Anyways we will see Rusty just loves him.

Rusty's been pretty tired as well! 

He goes to school from 7:30 to 12:30 then to work from 1:30 to 6. 

Comes home and takes care of Chomper, me, and the apartment.

The whole Chomper dug in our apartment.

He found a girlfriend while garage selling

I am now 13 weeks 14 weeks on Monday.
 I have spent from week 6 to about 12 weeks being sick throwing up almost every morning and night not being able to be in a car more then 5 min. But the last week or so I have only thrown up a few times and I am on Zofran which has been a huge help so I can function.
I am back to work but man it's tiring and I have to "graze" all day or I start to feel sick. But it's good to get out of the house and make some money.

Rusty and I have had our birthdays! Guess I was really bad at taking pics this year. On my birthday we just went over to Josh and Aubrey's to have some pizza and key-lime pie. I got a J Crew necklace, and waste bands for when I can't button up my pants, money, and another necklace. But the best part was I had my first check up and Rusty and I got to hear the baby's heart beat! It sounded strong and was a lot faster then you think it would be. At first he (Dr. Falk) was like oop there it is and I looked at Rusty and thought I don't hear anything and then all the sudden it was loud. I was 10 weeks then.
 For Rusty's birthday his parents, Ethan, Eli and Siciley were in town so we went to visit Ron's aunt that is still left Dot. Ashley and Josh came over too. (She had broke her leg rock climbing). I am also going back to work on Sat. My new store has still not opened so I am gunna get some hours at different stores around here till it does.

Sky when we went to the lake with the fam and played hotscotch in the front yard!

I have an apt on Tuesday and then 4 weeks after that we should find out what we are having!
This baby is truly a blessing and whatever he or she may be we are so excited..Rusty is thinking a girl but we would like our first to be a boy (Be the big brother) but it doesn't matter I just want him/her to be healthy.
Shout out to my man..
He's been the best really!
Running around trying to provide for us and go to school and live like a poor college student again is hard. I am so grateful with putting up with me and my tears. With me not be able to cook or clean. He is just awesome and I couldn't ask for a better husband who I know will do whatever it takes to take care of me and now our little one. He just got on with a company that when he graduates should be able to put us in a spot that I won't have to work when the baby comes!

3 grandparents

In one month my siblings and I lost three grandparents.

First came my dad's mom. 

She had Alzheimer and went quickly. 

One day she couldn't stand up right..the next only sat.. then slowly couldn't eat anymore. 

Everyone but Rusty went up to Utah for it. 

Rusty had to stay and work and also be with our dog.

It started a snow storm right when the funeral ended.

We drove by the houses we used to live in here in Utah.

We missed Trisha in this picture but my dad and his siblings.

I got to see Jen while i was up there and it'd been years! It was so good seeing her and it's like nothing ever changes with us! We have this parallel life i swear and its pretty neat! 

Then we lost my great grandpa on my mom's side a few weeks later. I guess he died the same day as Jerry did. (my mom's older brother that past away as an infant) 

I just have to say my great grandpa was amazing! He had a memory that just blew you away! 

He's first memory was when he was two and from then on he could tell you everyone's names (first and last) and where they came from. He had a funny sense of humor and was always amazed at the new technology that was coming out. An ipod just blew his mind that music could come out of that small of a device. He was an amazing husband to my great grandma and even though he would get mad he was always there for her when she couldn't remember something or where something was. One of my funniest memories was that a couple summers ago we went to fish lake cuz my mom couldn't believe we didn't have any memory of it and it could've been the last time my great grandparents were going to be there. (they went every summer) 

So we were setting things up and trying to pump this mattress up and my great grandma wanted to do it so i let her. But let me tell you she moved like a snail going up and down up and down. 

My great grandpa got up and hiked up his "britches" and said " move over you old lady" and did it him self.

 He was so stubborn he always felt capable to drive even though he was 97 or climb into a boat by himself. He loved the outdoors weather it was fishing, just sitting in the shade watching cars go by, riding his bike,  or going for a walk. 

One afternoon I was sitting on his porch in Yuma with him while everyone was out and he was telling me how mad he was that the place cut back his shade tree too much and that he wouldn't be around the next time it grew back. I was probably 14 at the time and not too much after he said he was gunna go inside and take a nap. So i sat there reading a book and every 2 min i looked over to make sure he was still breathing! But i learned he said stuff like that all the time or he'd say "well if I knew i was gunna live this long i would have taken better care of myself." Well Grandpa you lived to be 97 I think you did something right! 

yes we got him to try to long board!

These were taken just a few weeks before he passed.

The day he died i guess he wasn't feeling too well but said he didn't want to go to the hospital. Well later that day they sent him in a helicopter and he had a heart attack..then his lungs filled up with fluid..then his kidneys started failing. 

Pics from the funeral.

This was hard because he was the closest family member we've had go.

My mom thanked these men

Joyce's daughter came

He wanted to be cremated 

Buried next to his daughter

Rick and my mom

Darren and Madi

Cam in the back ground with Lori 

John

Adam and Kylie

Madi and Alex

I love cashews too!

Kortnee and Alyssa (the old chomper)

He had several medals for being a marks men. "good shot"

Mindy and Glen

Jeanie and my mom

Then my "step" grandpa on my dad's side passed away. We knew he wasn't going to last long after my grandma died. So i just have my mom's parents and m great grandma left.

Being around my great grandma after the funeral was really sad. She misses him a lot and is reminded all the time how great he was to her. (72 years together) He turned on the tv for her and told her over and over again where she was and who they live with. Her memory has gotten really bad the last little while that she asks over and over who you are and who you belong to. But then a min later she can pick you out in a picture. But i don't see her going any time soon. I've been blessed with such great grandparents! As Kortnee says " I don't want to get older"..